Recollections because of my Birthday

I don’t know about you, but I seem to become a much deeper thinker when my birthday is
approaching. First of all, where did the year go. They seem to be going so much faster
every year. Reminds me of the saying that life and the toilet paper roll goes faster
at the end, may be true, hmm.

So why do we resent having another birthday, we really should celebrate as we made it
another year. Growth and learning come with the living another year. Some lessons are
fun and easy, some, not so much. I think learning becomes even more important as we
age, because we actually start to get it. The false trying to please everyone has
been passed over, and now I am genuinely learning. How to feel good, enjoy things more,
really experience the deliciousness of life and the journey I am choosing. The need to
be a certain way so others will like me has transitioned into how do I play with them
so we can be the best that we are. It is freeing and fun to see the different way I
now perceive situations. Gone are the nightly remembering the day, and all the dumb
things I did that day. Gone are the helpless feeling of inadequacy for not being
like they wanted me to be. Found is the paying attention to how I really feel.
Accepting when something doesn’t feel right, and taking a step back to decide what
might feel better, even if it does not please those other people. Standing up for
myself, even if it means stepping away from the situation, and not beating up on myself.

“Try” should only happen when it is fun, and you have the burning desire to do it.
Everything else is just filler. If you think about it when you say “I’ll try” do you
really mean it, or are you just trying to appease someone else? If you really meant it,
you would have already accomplished it, or being in the process. Hmm.

I started this out because I was reflecting on a few of the situations in my life that
timing changed everything. The job I called to take, but was filled the day before,
the secretary who said I would not be allowed to have a dog, so I looked on, only to
speak later with the owner who said, I could have had many dogs if I would work for her.
The plane ride that was cancelled, and that plane crashed. These would all have taken
my life in completely different directions, yet I am glad I am living the journey I am,
and look happily forward to many more years.

So as the years pass, and we grow older, enjoy everyday and tell those you love how
you feel.
Be happy, live long and prosper.

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